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in my mind i am a bit disappointed for letting time slip by constantly fighting with myself bogged down by indecision as i struggle with answers i didn't get far but in the process i enjoyed myself and the people with me in my life i find that in between our nonsense we've developed deep connections over time and for that i'm grateful having stepped outside the system i grew a new set of eyes and the world became bigger and i saw my place in the scheme of life finding my uniqueness through the love in their eyes i am able to give more and be more i can smile now about the memories i've lived being further from the fact finding myself inside these moments i can recognize its importance i am aware i am open i am trying to reconcile and find a balance within my nature i see the importance of my roots in trying to find understanding in my identity but i am still loosely defined free to change and own up to my whims i am simply me sometimes i fear what i am capable of but i am accepting of all that i am self loathing is replaced with kindness and respect still confused but it's fine the surprises within each turn keeps me alert i remain hopeful i try to be positive i try to step outside of this self and use my heart