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Often it is only when people suddenly feel they are losing their partner that they realize how much they love them. Then they cling on even tighter. But the more they grasp, the more the other person escapes them, and the more fragile the relationship becomes.

So often we want happiness, but the very way we pursue it is so clumsy and unskillful that it brings only more sorrow. Usually we assume we must grasp in order to have that something that will ensure our happiness. We ask ourselves: “How can we possibly enjoy anything if we cannot own it?” How often attachment is mistaken for love!

Even when the relationship is a good one, love can be spoiled by attachment with its insecurity, possessiveness, and pride; and then when love is gone, all you have left to show for it are the “souvenirs” of love, the scars of attachment.

- Sogyal Rinpoche

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my day: woke up. prepared coffee and oatmeal for breakfast. read calvin and hobbes. two collections done, five more to go. listened to eagle eyed cherry. helped out olga. she called me her lifesaver and invited me for breakfast sometime. listened to fats domino. made spaghetti. it was vegetarian. signed up for nanowrimo. watched "wings of the dove". drew. painted. took a long, hot bath and read the goddess rules. watched "in the time of butterflies". ending of violence against women has left me feeling withdrawn. still am. he's flying to portland tomorrow, but promised to call from there and send the cold. listening to the cure now. i need busywork.

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luz took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test! "Needs to feel identified with someone or something..."

Existing Situation:
Active, outgoing, and restless. Feels frustrated by the slowness with which events develop along the desired lines. This leads to irritability, changeability, and lack of persistence when pursuing a given objective.

Stress Sources:
Seeks independence and freedom from any restriction and therefore avoids obligations or anything which might prove hampering. She is being subjected to considerable pressure and wants to escape from it so that she can obtain what she needs, but tends to lack the necessary strength of purpose to succeed in this.

Restrained Characteristics:
Remains emotionally unattached even when involved in a close relationship.
Willing to become emotionally involved and able to achieve satisfaction through sexual activity, but tries to avoid conflict.

Desired Objective:
Needs to feel identified with someone or something and wishes to win support by her charm and amiability. Sentimental and yearns for a romantic tenderness.

Actual Problem:
Seeks to avoid criticism and to prevent restriction of her freedom to act, and to decide for herself by the exercise of great personal charm in her dealings with others.

Actual Problem #2:The tensions induced by trying to cope with conditions which are really beyond her capabilities, or reserves of strength, have led to considerable anxiety and a sense of personal (but unadmitted) inadequacy. She attempts to escape into a substitute world in which things are more nearly as she desires them to be.

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I am Justice Justice is a signal to do what needs to be done. A time comes when responsibilities must be accepted, and accounts settled. The past will continue to haunt you if you do not recognize your mistakes and make amends for them. You will need to weigh matters carefully and perhaps make important decisions about your future course. For a full description of your card and other goodies, please visit LearnTarot.com

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I'm ready for a change, something life altering.
I think I'm waiting for something inside me to just click
and go "okay, let's do it." Maybe I'll do something
differently tomorrow and hope it's what I've been waiting for.

"You want to know about your past life, look at your present CONDITIONS. You want to know about your next life, look at your present ACTIONS."