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[elyouc]

I've forgotten what it's like to take my time... Feel so hurried feel so rushed

I wanna cut out the shit but I don't know where to start
It's not like I party so much or at all anymore
everything matters on some level
maybe i've wasted so much time by taking my time that i'm catching up for all that lost time
so unhappy sometimes
i feel worn out
keep on saying that something has to give but i am so unwilling to give up anything
can't find a middle ground
i'm either a major slacker or go too crazy being an overachiever
for the moment i'm slacking on overachieving if that makes sense
just taking back MY time
winding down putting it off til later
doing better in my classes but it's been a constant effort
if i can only see into a tangible future
i don't even know why i do the things i do
i should just stop expecting so much of myself
so what if things fall apart maybe they're meant to
i just want to feel happy again
doing things that i want to do
and not feel like i'm in prison within my own life
my own life
i should own it again
JUST SAY NO!!!!