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Nov. 12th, 2007 12:11 pmmy cat is inspiring me to post a pointless entry. i am cranky because he wakes me up everyday 10 minutes before 7 am and asks to be fed. like clockwork. so i retaliate and when he's fallen fast asleep i wake him up. oh, and after he's cleaned himself up i pet him and mess up his work. it's love.
meh. not much new with me. trying to slow down. been a hermit this past couple of days save for when i hung out with ryne. we watched airborne. felt time's distance. getting wrapped up with ancient knowledge these days. getting angry at god for testing us. feeling so small and humbled. makes me want to get back to the concert going routine but the next won't be til this weekend for the wjrr bbq. i think we're meeting with finger eleven, nonpoint and j's redoing the skindred interview. neil invited me up for the bear creek festival and while i'd love to go and work on that friendship i'm having too much fun being around musicians. * i formed my first fangirl crush on the guitarist of helmet. he was a cutie (australian) and he was the flirt. i was just a quiet bystander til page started bringing me in the act. we all talked later. actually as far as crushes go, demetri from burning brides should be it. during sound check i was mentally fanning myself everytime he looked over. i think he's married but i can't help it he's magnetic. yeah my fixation for creative boys and this newfound obsession will spell disaster for any hopes of a normal relationship with frankey i'm sure. i've been already hearing biting sarcasm out of him but i cut him off right quick. this is what he wanted so quit with the attitude right? after all the shows, i head for him so shouldn't he be happy? i don't know. still figuring this out. i like my freedom but sometimes it feels like too much. i need to know my boundaries. "si te hace feliz.." i guess i'm happy but i don't want to feel like i'm hurting people along the way. feels worse for me. back to things that makes me happy.. painting. yay. me and cody's gonna paint our fishes sometime in the middle of the week. i've got fourteen mahogany wooden carvings on hand. (they're done by prisoners from the philippines) he's got one he bought from me to give to his family for thanksgiving. so we'll make a day of it. it should be good times. :) i'm hungry. i need to remember this whole eating thing haha.
meh. not much new with me. trying to slow down. been a hermit this past couple of days save for when i hung out with ryne. we watched airborne. felt time's distance. getting wrapped up with ancient knowledge these days. getting angry at god for testing us. feeling so small and humbled. makes me want to get back to the concert going routine but the next won't be til this weekend for the wjrr bbq. i think we're meeting with finger eleven, nonpoint and j's redoing the skindred interview. neil invited me up for the bear creek festival and while i'd love to go and work on that friendship i'm having too much fun being around musicians. * i formed my first fangirl crush on the guitarist of helmet. he was a cutie (australian) and he was the flirt. i was just a quiet bystander til page started bringing me in the act. we all talked later. actually as far as crushes go, demetri from burning brides should be it. during sound check i was mentally fanning myself everytime he looked over. i think he's married but i can't help it he's magnetic. yeah my fixation for creative boys and this newfound obsession will spell disaster for any hopes of a normal relationship with frankey i'm sure. i've been already hearing biting sarcasm out of him but i cut him off right quick. this is what he wanted so quit with the attitude right? after all the shows, i head for him so shouldn't he be happy? i don't know. still figuring this out. i like my freedom but sometimes it feels like too much. i need to know my boundaries. "si te hace feliz.." i guess i'm happy but i don't want to feel like i'm hurting people along the way. feels worse for me. back to things that makes me happy.. painting. yay. me and cody's gonna paint our fishes sometime in the middle of the week. i've got fourteen mahogany wooden carvings on hand. (they're done by prisoners from the philippines) he's got one he bought from me to give to his family for thanksgiving. so we'll make a day of it. it should be good times. :) i'm hungry. i need to remember this whole eating thing haha.
